here's an old post i'd just dug up from my blog's treasure chest:


i'm status emo now. just tuned in only, because it took a pretty long time for the message to sink in: i'm not going to see the class for quite some time..

the graduation ceremony had just ended, about 41 minutes ago. after all those ushering for long, draggy grad days for the past two years, i thought i was immune to them. however, when the feeling strikes, it struck me real hard. it was the fastest graduation ceremony i'd ever attended.

honestly, when i went to school today, i didn't have any feeling of holding back my life in school. i didn't think of today being the last day. neither was i depressed about the fact that i won't be seeing the class sitting together in our homeroom again. call me slow, call me a featherbrain. i won't disagree with you. but it wasnt the end.. it isnt.

when mr yong cried today, a surge of emotions hit me and i started tearing though i really fought hard to contain them. in fact, i felt a little numb. i have been feeling a sense of numbness lately and i don't know why. it's not like i'm indifferent to what's going on, i'm not a frivolous person. i have feelings too. but this time, i can't cry anymore. it seems as though my tears have been sapped out from my body and into that kidney machine. 'sad' is not in my vocabulary anymore.. but it doesnt mean i'm happy. i'm going to miss 4E1 and i have to face it on my own hereafter.

if only the whole class can come back together during the 'holidays' . there are so many 'if only's

i'm going to miss

jasmine- my crazy buddy. the one always ringing me up in tears, pouring her heart out, allowing me to face it with her. likewise, she is the only one who is able to immediately indentify when my voice is shaky and knows that something is wrong. the irritating brat that pulls everyone's ties!

roxanne- the precious lady that lives just 2 minutes away from me. always retarded, forever lovable. we'll eat honey stars and study at your lounge again. take care of yourself girl, i know i don't have to miss you. i'll still see you, right babe? we're still gonna share closets!

jiahui- the girl whose tongue is always tied. i know how much the toilet means to her and yes, she's the one who's always taking care of me, like literally. i love you

joanne- the woman with a loud voice. 'pms-ing' all the time but i still love her. i love joanne with her burger and ice milo.

minhua- though i'm not exactly THAT close to you, you are still my recess buddy. the only one who never fails to laugh at my silly jokes. thank you for that, you don't know how much that means to me.

emily- png shi! never think you're unimportant. the fact that your name is on my blog means that you are important to me! thank you for being a jolly friend who's always cheering me up. i love you!

shireen- i'm her monkey, she's my trainer. but just look at her, what a bad trainer she has been! after all these years, she'd become a monkey herself. haha i'm glad though, at least she's happy and that's what matters most, doesn't it?

khai- yes, the girl i'm always sit next to during lit. always teaching me malay together with her best buddy shireen. khai, i love you! and i'll never forget your very unique laughter. lol

aqilahshakini- oh man, this babe's the coolest. pretty with her new hairstyle too! she has always been the same kiki i'd know since sec one. always waving her hands in the air when she laughs or when she's stressed out! want to deejay when you grow up right? i'll join you!!

nasiha- ha ha ha the pretty lady all the guys go after. this woman's always trying to snap our bras. and yes, i'll never forget the umbrella fondler. you are so rocking man!

suhara- babe, how cool can you get man.. you're smart, pretty, independent. i know you'll succeed in future. trust me on that

mark- the buddy whom i love walking home with. there's never a boring moment with him, really. you're great and i guess you're one of the best buds i've ever had. don't ever look down on yourself. you're a big man with a big spirit!

marcus- camera shy, i know. use to bully him during sec two. haha i won't forget how frightened you were of me. but hey, we're good friends now right? and always will be

najib- full of life and spirit. he's totally nonsensical. always singing as far as i can recall. najib ah najib.. who's your sunshine? haha

chonkiat- the gay, he never denies that. i wonder who will be the first to steal his heart. hopefully it wont be a guy! ;) just joking, mr shit.

calvin- i've known you for so long! very handsome now huh? still want to try my earrings? (oh that reminds me. today, miss ong approached me and actually said, 'never wear your egg earrings today?' lol! she actually remembers that?! my earrings do make quite a statement huh.)

tuan ann- the bicycle man.. do you know i jog past your house quite often? haha love your dog, love your silly jokes. at least there is someone as lame as me.

timothy- timo timo timo. the adorable guy who names one of his dogs money. i'll never ever forget how you always answer things in a twisted but logical way.

leroi- my servant. a gentleman? he's bias against guys though, always pinching their nipples. lol!

so that sums up all my close friends, friends who have been God's most invaluable gift to me. i'll never ever forget all of you because yours names have already been engraved in my heart.

kudos to all the teachers of bedok view. my entry's really long, i better stop here. will dedicate and entry for you guys some time soon! :D

for now, GOOD LUCK EVERYONE! you all deserve the BEST!











I MISS MISS MISS YOU ALL!