have you ever wished you could literally disable any connections whatsoever with this world and not give a damn about anybody other than yourself? to live YOUR own life as if it's merry-ohkay and everything's just colourful raindows and sweet candies? that's too cliche and besides, it'll be absolutely selfish right? but sometimes, i just can't help it, i am selfish. every once in a while, i wished i could simply severe all ties and say: goodbye earth, i'm now heading on to barbie's world. [oh, but in that sense, for those who know me, vanessa running off to barbie land would seem highly impossible as she is terrified of them]

if rose-tinted glasses were sold, i would immediately equip myself with the latest singaporean guide to being kiasu and be the first in the queue to buy them. no worries, it's not like i'm suicidal or anything and i'll definitely not go off slitting my wrists with rusty pen knives. i just think that it doesnt make sense. all these hoo haa about life? it's just too surreal to think that God actually chose us over other billions and zillions of applicants to take on this job to govern our lives and be part of this world we live in. it's like, why the heavens did he even pick me?! well, do i look psychologically and emotionally able to take on such immense responsiblity? no, i'm certainly not.

however, if i were to continue view things this way, i might as well start digging my own grave.
no doubt, life aint as pretty as it seems sometimes, friends. but whatever it is, just hold on. No matter how immeasurable the level of difficulty is, no matter how deep the trench infront of you may seem, just be strong and know that i am here and just a hotline away[: