Should I or should I not.

haha.

it's not like I wanna talk about it.
But i'm thinking about it because i feel that it's different this time..

it's ..one of a kind?

The reasons concurring to my "mind-boggling" dilemma are battling perfectly with the reasons "violently" objecting it.

I don't have the time. seriously.
I don't want to loose my independence
I don't want to live in fear.
I don't want to lie.
I don't want to cry or be the least devasted when it, somehow, ends.
I'm not ready.

but

I know i'll be happy.
It's different.. really.
there's more to it..

i know i seem to contradict myself..
about being happy yet afraid.

But I know what i'm talking about.

And the weirdest thing is,
i can't belive i'm actually considering this.

i guess it's all part of growing up.

and it shucks.

oh wells..

probably.. i'm just running and hiding.
prabably.. i'm afraid of such things.

hopefully. i'll get the right answers soon.