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Thursday, April 21, 2005
+[SoMeTiMeS, It'S bEtTeR tO gIvE uP]+
-[Or ElSe GiVe In]-
Note: to a particular person.
You say that you are dissapointed in me. Ok, fine/. But let me tell you this. You do not know the whole story/. So, don't judge other people. Anyway, who are we to judge others? Besides, in actual fact, if you wanna talk about dissapointment, in my perspective, i am dissapointed in you.
Really. I am hoping that you wake up and stop dreaming. Seriously. Sinking yourself into a delusion is definitely not the way. Get a life boy. There's no time to brood over this. I know the whole thing. She told me things you do not know. today, when i saw you fantasising, i was felt dreadfully awful.. i really take you as a buddy. that's way i'm told you those stuffs. it wasnt meant to hurt you although i knew it would. but u are a guy. control yourself and think about how others feel. there was really no other way to put it. and it is not me who wants to interfere in both of ur affairs. you think enjoy it? she told me to help her. so.,if you insist on taking my advice for granted. so be it. Just tell me that you don't care and i won't bother about you anymore. i told you all these things, hoping that you would at least stop and consider what i had said today. Probably you did, but you didn't understand. Do you think i do not want to tell the whole story to you? Who doesnt? i'm trying to keep it in because if i told you everything in one go, you're so-gonna-break-down. Please, stop acting like she's everything. stop chasing a dream. Ok. you may say, i don't understand you. i wont understand how it feels. but i know one thing. that is: the deeper you to go, the harder you fall. it's up to you which to chose but i suggest you give up now.. it's possible. I can't tell you everything, at least, not yet. i want you to get a hold of yourself and think of how she feels. Stop dreaming. there's no perfect fairytale. i don't want to lie to you. so don't make me.
I did try to put myself in your shoes and consider your feelings already. I told her not to tell you face to face because you would just break down. if you don't appreciate it. i don't care. i don't mind being the bad person. whatever. just try to digest this situation. really.. say whatever you want.
i'm not trying to say that i'm some kinda good person here. i'm just trying to help you. take it...
or leave it.

Vanessa, The Unfortunate Bimbo
Fine, i'll admit it- I can be absolutely brainless sometimes. But! But! But! I stress on the word 'SOMETIMES'. spell 'Seventeen', 'Hospitality and Tourism Management', 'HipHop and Modern Dance' and your name(: and you've got me!

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