+[no time for break down]-
i really feel like breaking down, to just cry everything out and leave it there unsettled. But.. what's there to cry about? so what if this year had been complexingly rocky recently, i still have God with me. And that matters most. crying over spilled milk isnt going to do anything to ease the situation. Correction: SITUATIONS// you know.. it's like. After the loss of Alex, i feel like he's still around. it's the feeling, as though he is still alive, kicking my legs, lying beside me and just.. being himself. there's no feeling of loss for me. at least, not really. it's alittle more of loneliness. it's like.. when i'm on the swing, he usually follows me everywhere i go and he'll just keep disturbing me(playing i mean). but now. nope. no one. just a patch of empty grass he used to trample on. But there's no feeling of regret or whatsoever. i'm not acting strong here. i tink? hahas well, that's not my intentions. i just want u people to wake up. hey! look at life positively! there are always different prospects of life that is open and is waiting for u to just look at its direction. why brood over stupid things. i believe Alex is in heaven, that's why i'm happy. he'll now have free flow of carrots, bountiful grasslands for him to poop and pee on and other friendly bunnies to accompany him. really, think about it. who doesnt love alex right? off course i was devasted by his death at first. but hey! why am i so upset? shouldn't i feel happy for him instead? ok. so get the point? things happen for a good reason. seriously. if u tink that way. good! keep it up because you'll be a happy person FOREVER! . common!! life is super short. there's no time to waste on things we shouldn't be thinking about. just leave it behind (that doesnt mean u have to forget it.) , forget it when u must.
i'll always continue loving alex and charlie like how i use to do. they'll definitely live in my heart. actually they had always been. they're not gone. never.. hahas.
Death is not seperation. ironically, it's a beginning of an eternal life in ur heart that will live in u until the day, you too, will live others heart.
sound so chim!! get it anot? ahahs i've just like WRITTEN SO MUCH. bet you've given up halfway.
